2 Weeks Down

Well it is 2 weeks since I had my last cigarette.  I still had high hopes of some kind of euphoric feeling of success.  I still feel numb.  I truly do not know what is going on. My bowels have gone weird, I have constant bloating and I just feel so crappy!

My hubby and I have gone into counselling, I am not sure what to make of all this.  The counsellor is a lovely woman but I really do not think she "gets me".  We talked for an hour and my hubby and I did little interaction, which was fine by me as I still get angry at just the sound of his voice!  Its craziness!

I have been looking around for something to control my eating.  I have now gained 6 kilos, I am so angry, no make that ropable, at how I cannot control my eating.  It seems to be a vicious circle for me right now, to not smoke I eat which apparently "soothes" me, (counsellor's insight).  The councellor informed me that sugars and carbohydrates are often craved by smokers in the first few weeks as it gives a sharp but short euphoric sensation, similar of that to nicotine.

I have signed up for a couple of weight loss sites, I have signed up to support groups to help with my quitting smoking, lets just help it helps in some way!  I need to be more positive about this, I am slowly becoming everything I despise in a person.  Time to make some serious changes.