I Think I Have Done It!

I have been quit for almost a year now.  I have not updated here in so long.  I just could not continually write the word fuck every two words.

I am still struggling.  Yep, imagine that!  I do not feel like I have successfully quit as of yet but I have made it this far and I have no intention of going through all that shit again. 

I have eaten myself into oblivion.  I have gained so much weight that I now have other health issues that I need to deal with. 

I ended back up in counseling due to not being very easy to get along with after quitting.  The same old shit occurred.  I think I wanted a divorce about 100 times and I still think my kids do not like the new me.  I don't even know who I am anymore.  How the hell does smoking affect you that much?  Shame on me for ever starting!

I am going to try and get this weight off without taking smoking back up. 
My journey is here

While I am quietly proud of myself.  I could never take even a puff of another ciggy.  I have days where I secretly miss the coffee and ciggy time out.

My name is Caz and I will always be an addict!