Day 5 of Not Smoking

Ok, I am not coping!  AT ALL!!!  The cravings are supposed to be subsiding but no, they are hanging on like a vengeful bitch!  I am so cranky!  NO, make that I am REALLY CRANKY!  My hubby has decided to quit with me, it just aint happening!  Do I hate him?  YES I do right this moment.  I cannot stand anyone being around me, I even hate myself for gods sake!  Why does this have to be so hard??  I have done cold turkey before but I do not think I have ever felt it this bad and I bloody planned ahead this time.

I am eating like a bitch!  I cannot stop.  I have struggled with my weight for so long and now, WTF, it is just out of control.  I have gained 2 kilos already, at this rate I will be a candidate for a heart attack faster than I was at smoking.  JESUS!!!

I am trying, seriously here, to get over this shit.  I am going to bed, sleep seems to be the only thing that keeps me sane.   I do not want advice, I just want a damn smoke!